Hi there! 👋

The glow from my laptop just hits different tonight. After months of prep, what felt like endless revisions, and way too many late-night coffees to keep me awake, I finally hit that magic "Submit" button for my LPDP Batch 1 2026 application. Yep, my second attempt is officially in!

Getting to this point has been honestly intense. Juggling my day job as a civil servant, trying my best to be fully present as a mom and a wife, all while diving headfirst into the heavy stuff for my PhD proposal on Generative AI in public sector auditing, took absolutely everything I had. There were definitely moments where trying to blend complex academic theories like institutional logics with the everyday reality of running a household felt totally overwhelming.

But staring at that confirmation screen tonight? The exhaustion just melts away into pure relief and satisfaction.

You know that specific kind of peace you get when you’ve left it all on the table? That’s exactly where I’m at. I’ve researched, tweaked, and fought so hard for this dream. I did the heavy lifting to get my ideas out of my head and onto paper. But now, the typing is done. It’s time to let it go.

Tonight, I’m surrendering the whole process—the applications, the dream of heading to Macquarie in 2027, and whatever comes next—completely to Jesus.

The book of Joshua reminds us to be strong and courageous when we're stepping into the unknown, and that's exactly how I want to walk into this waiting period: with a quiet, trusting heart. I’ve planted the seeds and done literally everything I humanly can. Now, I get to joyfully leave the harvest to Him. Whatever the outcome, His plan is already written, and it's perfect.

Here’s to doing our absolute best and trusting God with the rest! ✨

Next up: Australia Awards Scholarship. Let's do this!